Due Date: December 1st.
Gender: We are the waiting to be surprised people.
Nonstop tangelos this week, please. We went grocery shopping and I declared in the parking lot, “I’m buying all the tangelos they have!” But I guess someone else also made a similar declaration because the store only had four left. Four! Well, those four got eaten in a day and half, so later in the week Dillon made the crazy-pregnant-wife-craving grocery trip to buy me more tangelos. And milk. Because cereal is still also a thing for this pregnant mama.
I immediately think to write, I am feeling great! Because I still remember week 26 where I felt close to death. Where I didn’t have enough strength to change Declan’s diaper or wash his highchair tray. Now, I have enough energy to do those things about 2423 times a week! I’ve been taking Mattie and Declan on a thirty minute morning walk each day and a second walk in the late afternoon as we wait for daddy to come home from work. I’m able to lift and play with a 1 year old. I can squat holding that one year old when he drops the keys or whatever item he had and I need to pick it up. I can cook and clean. I’m feeling great physically. I am feeling 8 months pregnant towards the end of the day. After dinner especially. The baby in the belly is a mover, with maybe 6 elbows, and at nighttime it feels like the baby has grown, but my belly did not grow along with it.
Also, heartburn is worse this pregnancy. Declan was born with a lot of hair and I didn’t have it much with him. I was eating cleaner with Declan though, so that may be a factor. Or maybe baby is a girl…!
A little anxious, but I don’t want to be. I’m getting anxious because my baby updates are now saying things like, You’re In the Home Stretch, Mama! or Baby Will Be Here So Soon!
I am excited to meet the newest member of our family and our next big adventure, but now that we’ve crossed over to the “home stretch” I’m needing to prepare mentally. I am not emotionally ready. The house isn’t as ready as I’d like. We have 7 weeks, or less (!), left and it suddenly feels really real.
The second pregnancy is different because…
I have not done any research about how to give birth naturally. And I need to! Just because I did it before, doesn’t mean I feel ready to do it again. I’m having a lot of anxious feelings about giving birth naturally again and I know it’s because I haven’t been doing any reading on the topic. With Declan’s birth, I felt ready. I knew all about the stages of labor and the tips and tricks. I had numerous positive natural birth stories fresh in my head. I had Bible verses written out. I had Ian May quotes about birth memorized. This time— I’m having some fear and my body kind of remembers the pain. I want the fear gone because fear and birth don’t belong together.
What’s New With Baby #1? Declan – 1 year old!
Declan is exploring the world around him and points to everything.
He has discovered how to point and it is really adorable. He points and then will talk loudly in the direction he pointed. I just know he is saying something, but not sure what. He is also taking off with walking. He will still crawl when he needs the speed, but he can easily stand up and walk. Or stand up, point, and walk towards what he wants.
With Baby #2, something I’ll do differently is…
Apparently panic about giving birth. I did not feel nervous about giving birth the first time. These next weeks I need to find some positive natural birth stories (maybe even finish writing Declan’s birth story…!) and spend some quality time getting ready to give birth. I need to remind myself of the three thoughts that helped me give birth naturally the first time.
With Baby #2, something I’ll do the same is…
I’m not sure. The closer this baby gets to arriving, the more I think bout how things will have to be different. There’s a one year old in the mix now. Flexibility may need to be high up on my mommy list.
A tough mommyhood moment this week:
Slightly battling the loneliness of being a stay at home mama. I want to be more intentional about getting together with family, even for an hour, or making play dates with friends. It makes such a difference in how our day goes when we get visitors. I need to be better about taking us outside of the house. All week long I had plans for taking us to Hobby Lobby or the library, but we didn’t make it out of the house until Friday. Friday Fieldtrip was to Target, Chipotle, and a local drive-thru ice cream shop. The field trip broke our day up really great, but was tiring for me. One stop in the future would be best.
A sweet mommyhood moment this week:
Getting the hang of being a stay at home mama. Getting a daily rhyme that works best for Declan and me. I’m loving the new routine we are on and am so thankful to be getting this time with him. I am also trying to stay on top of keeping the house clean and easily functioning for Dillon and myself. Keeping up with the bottles being washed immediately. Keeping up with laundry. Keeping up on vacuuming. I want to get a new cleaning reputation! Katie keeps a clean house!
#PregnancyGoals for next week:
- Gain faith about giving birth and lose the fear.
Bump Photo at 32 Weeks
Hah, so… I know I wrote about keeping a clean house and there’s a wet paper towel in my bump photo… Declan had just played in Mattie’s water bowl. There’s normally not wet paper towels just lying around. Anymore…! New cleaning rep!